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Why? my blog title "Better2me"

As a woman, mother, and wife my first instinct is to take care of those around me. I nurture those I love in many ways through out the day, but sometimes find myself neglecting me. Recently I realized that I need to nurture myself as well. So this blog is about ME!!!!! What fills my heart; my simple life of kids, husband, animals, home, and creativity. For being better2me leads me to be better to those I love.

Friday, February 3, 2012

A single photo, a glimpse at this week.....and in this case what I am struggling with.



Today my father struggled to breath and I saw true panic in his eyes, yet when they went to exchange his nose oxygen for this mask he refused because he did not want to prolong his life. The therapist assured him that it was just a tool and he understand that my father did not want a ventilator.
I finally got the nurse to give him something for anxiety and for the first time in six months, according to him, he was without worry and angst. I sat next to him as he slept and realized life was coming full circle as he use to sit next to me while I slept, as a baby.
I wish I could hold him in my arms and pat, pat, pat, him on the back to tell him it will be ok, just as he use to do me, but I know it is not true.

3 comments:

  1. You know I'm here to help or be a shoulder. xo

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  2. Headed over from a shared post and I just wanted to tell you that a stranger from the Bay Area is sending you and your father soothing thoughts. Many soothing thoughts. <3

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  3. Oh, so sad. I'm terribly sorry that you are going through this, and while I know it's difficult, know that your father is more at peace with you nearby.

    You brought tears to my eyes.

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about me

Alta Loma, California, United States
I am a newly, 3 years, transplanted California, who has found her heart in Northern Idaho. Married to my better half, Kevin, for 34 years, we live on ten acres with a pond, a barn with 23 antique John Deer tractors, 18 chickens and four labs (3 fox red, 1 chocolate) My hubby took an early out from United during this Covid situation, but still works full time as a flight examiner, we are learning how to empty nest to its fullest. Only thing that would make life better is if our children and daughter in law lived closer.