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Why? my blog title "Better2me"

As a woman, mother, and wife my first instinct is to take care of those around me. I nurture those I love in many ways through out the day, but sometimes find myself neglecting me. Recently I realized that I need to nurture myself as well. So this blog is about ME!!!!! What fills my heart; my simple life of kids, husband, animals, home, and creativity. For being better2me leads me to be better to those I love.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

An Ache in the Middle of an Amazing Moment

Two summers ago while in Mexico we met, through friends, two woman who enhanced my life. A mother and daughter whose bond was ethereal, a true gift from God.

The mother, who had been fighting lung cancer, taught me to step outside my comfort zone. She confided in me that usually she would not have come alone with her daughter or done many of the things she did that week, if it had not been for her need to create memories with her. She stated that no longer was the idea of getting on a jet ski scary or embarrassing, because her figure was far from perfect or because of the many scars and loss of hair from brain surgery, but instead was a moment to live, to feel the wind against her face, to feel joy.

Her daughter and only child taught me that the bond between child and mother is so strong and powerful. Seeing them together, I truly believe that the love she had for her mother is what kept her alive far past her time.

Love won the battle, but unfortunately lost the war as that next Thanksgiving Day, in a true twist of irony, or perhaps fate, as all were to sit down for a dinner, her mother went quickly, called by a higher power to a place free of pain.

Unfortunately, here, pain still lingers, and on Instagram this morning her daughter posted a graduation picture of herself in front of her sorority at USC. An amazing person in all areas, culturally, socially, academically, and with a graduation gown embellished with the highest honors a student from one of the most prestigious schools ever, she is so accomplished for someone her age.. But the comment she had placed underneath simply stated "I hope you are proud of me Momma."

As a mother myself and as someone who has become a better person for knowing her mother, this brought tears to my eyes. and although I can state emphatically and with true certainty that there is no one prouder, in this world and the next, then her mother is of her......I cannot change the true issue, that her mother is not here to say it herself.

about me

Alta Loma, California, United States
I am a newly, 3 years, transplanted California, who has found her heart in Northern Idaho. Married to my better half, Kevin, for 34 years, we live on ten acres with a pond, a barn with 23 antique John Deer tractors, 18 chickens and four labs (3 fox red, 1 chocolate) My hubby took an early out from United during this Covid situation, but still works full time as a flight examiner, we are learning how to empty nest to its fullest. Only thing that would make life better is if our children and daughter in law lived closer.